I was driving home from classes. It was dark. The road (same one I had my crash) was winding and narrow. I've driven that road many times, and driving it at night was something I've done numerous times as well. So what made last night different? Well, usually when I come home from classes, I'm usually the first car of a few, or the only one. I usually have to pay very close attention, take it slow, use my high beams (and turn them off every 20 seconds because a car is coming towards me), and just drive super carefully and stay alert. Last night I was driving as usual, but realized it was a lot easier than it typically is. I wondered why, and realized it was because there was a person in front of me, leading the way, lighting up the path. He was the one who had to concentrate on flipping his high beams on and off. I knew whatever might jump out of the surrounding woods unexpectedly he would see first, and I could just apply my brakes, following his lead.
And that's when it hit me! Hard. The harsh reality that I needed to become aware of was thrown in my face, but gently, because it was God saying it. Here is what he said: "See how easy it is? Life could be easier if you just trusted me to guide you. It's not your place to lead your own life. You gave your life to me, and it is my place to lead you. To protect you from the winding curves and the valleys that life's path consists of. It's your job to follow my lead when something unexpected jumps in your path. You still need to be alert, but you don't need to worry because I'm in control. I'm the first to know what is going to happen, so TRUST me. Trust me with your life. It's not going to be easy at first, but in the long run it'll serve you most to trust me."
I tend to be a follower in general. I prefer to take orders rather than give them. But for some reason, when it comes to my own life, I feel like everything is going to go wrong if I'm not in the drivers seat. Obviously, the opposite is true, but my pride distorts my reality.
So, I encourage you today to evaluate your life and see if you are trying to be in control or if you have given up that control to God. I am not saying this to demean anyone, or to be self righteous because I have yet to give up the control. I go through phases of trusting God, but it has yet to be a way of life for me as it should.
If you have any testimonies in the area of trust and control, I would love for you to share them in the comment box, or post them on your own blog and let me know in a comment.