I've been thinking a lot about seasons lately. No, not winter, spring, summer, fall seasons, but seasons of life. I was thinking about how I can't remember the last time I was at home for the entire day. In fact, excluding Sundays, I am normally gone more of the day than I am home. Most days I am gone at least 8 hours straight, but it's not uncommon for me to be gone 12-14+ either. Then I got to thinking how sometimes I feel like I live in my car. It seems like I'm ALWAYS driving- school, work, church, stores, etc. I guess it's a good thing I love it. I was thinking today how thankful I am that I finally got enough time to clean my room. Those observations and thoughts didn't start out sinful. I know they sound like complaints, but in all honesty, they weren't. They were just thoughts. But they soon turned sinful.
I started to get to the point I was envying moms who could stay at home all day if they wanted. Homemakers who have the whole day to clean. People who can just go to bed whenever they want and not have to worry about homework. People already done with school and onto their career. People who didn't have to drive everywhere all the time. (And this where you all tell me I'm deceived about how the life of stay at home moms, homemakers, career people, etc, really are)
But then God stopped me. After a few minutes of these envious thoughts running wild in my mind, luring me to complain, envy, and become discontent, God convicted me. Lord willing, one day, when I'm a mom with napping toddlers, I'm probably going to wish I was a college student who could just up and leave whenever I want without kids in tow. One day, Lord willing, I'm going to have babies or sick children waking me up every few hours and I'm going to wish I had homework that kept me up, but then let me sleep more than 2 hours straight. One day, I'm going to have a bad teaching day and wish I was still in school learning to be a teacher rather than experiencing the not so happy moments of it. One day I'll probably be scrubbing the floors and wiping the counters for the 100th time and complaining about it the whole time.
God was so gracious to stop me and gently remind me that this is just a season, and there will probably be a day I long to return to this season, even if just for one day. There will be a day I'm complaining that I am stuck at home all day. A day where I'm complaining because I have to clean my room again. A day where I'm complaining I don't get any adult conversation or opportunity to use my intellect. The list goes on. By God's grace, I'm finding contentment in this "I'm: single/a college student/a pastor's secretary/pretty much living in my car/never at home" season of life, and hope to remain content in it no matter how long it lasts.
In closing, I didn't write this to convict you. I didn't write it to say "Look at me, I'm all godly because I'm content" (If only you knew the deep struggle I have to be content. If I don't CONSTANTLY remind myself of how much God has blessed me, I easily and quickly go right to being discontent, which is displayed through anger, complaining, or a number of other sinful responses). I didn't write this so that moms would envy my freedom. I didn't write this so that you would start comparing your life to mine. I wrote this to remind myself to be content where I am, and hopefully in the process, encourage you to do the same, even if your season of life is completely different than mine.
Questions (answers as many or as few as you want. If they're personal, just reflect on them, don't feel you need to share):
~Are you content in whatever season you are in right now? If so, how did God bring you to that place of contentment?
~When do you find it easiest to become discontent in your season (specifics, not "I find it easiest to be discontent when things are hard.")
~ What is the most helpful counsel someone has given you regarding the season of life you are in right now?
~ What counsel would you give to someone in my season? (This is wide open!)
~ What bible verse or passage have you found to be most encouraging when it comes to contentment?