Growing up, I never asked God questions. I thought it was wrong. I thought it showed a lack of trust. As I've gotten older, I've changed my view. I began thinking about the difference between "Questioning God" and "Asking God Questions."
You might be thinking, "Come on, Sarah, there's no difference." But here is the way I see it:
Questioning God sounds accusitive, as if you're blaming God or implying He messed up. Asking God questions is wanting to know why He is doing something, but TRUSTING Him even if He doesn't give you an answer.
Right now I'm so aware of the raging battle between flesh and spirit and I want to know what God is doing. I find myself asking Him when this battle will be over, when will I be able to fully surrender to Him, when will I love him so much that a relationship with a guy is only secondary, when will I have a passion for Him like I once did, how long will I have to keep crying out, how long will I have to feel distant before I draw near again.
I know He hears me, but sometimes I just get so tired of asking over and over. I have to continually remind myself of the truth, but sometimes, I don't even fully accept it. I'm tired of feeling defeated.
Then, I started thinking that the reason I feel distant is because I'm putting that distance there. God is close and He always has been. I have just neglected to spend a lot of time in His word. I'm the one spending more time thinking about a guy, being in a relationship, being married, having a family, etc., than I am spending time in God's word, searching His truths, letting His never failing love and care comfort and encourage me.
So, here I am, asking God questions. Not doubting His sovereignty, but definitely feeling distant. Wondering when this trial will end, and in the midst, trying to draw close to Him so that he will draw near to me.
I am so thankful for a God who never leaves me where I am, a God who never gives up on me even when I'm not submitting to Him, a God who never stops loving me even when I'm in disobedience, a God who never stops putting people in my life to encourage me, a God who never ends.
What do you think:
1) Is there a difference between questioning God and asking God questions?
2) What do you do when you are feeling distant from God?